When I was in India this song “In Christ Alone” was constantly in my head. I would be singing it while I took a bucket shower or humming it as I was walking through a Buddhist temple or just singing it with my team as we drove through the foothills of the Himalayas.

This part of the song is something I think on especially today:

And as He stands in victory
Sins curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

I rejoice in this.

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From a lifes first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

I pray constantly for Gods Will to be done in my life, but then when something happens and it doesn’t go according to what I want Gods Will for my life to be I get upset with him. How could he do that to me? His child? I left my home for him. I left my everything for him. Why couldn’t he just do this one thing for me.
Then during my tantrum I see what I have done. I have made a hypocrite of myself. I told him one thing, but in my heart I was in a since trying to bribe God. Look at me, a good little Christian girl serving in France. NOW, give me what I want, but I will wrap it with “Oh, Let your will be done.”

Sadly, I say that I do this more often than not. Do I do the things that I do because I want to use it as leverage towards God (as if I could actually have leverage against him) or do I do them because I love him? I can be so childish and forget what he has already done for me. He doesn’t OWE me anything. I OWE him everything. My breath. My family. My friends. My finances. Nothing is mine. It is all his.

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand

I just think on this. That there is nothing that can take me from his hold. He is not the God of solely the United States, He is the God of the World. He created it. He holds it firmly. His will is being done even when it doesn’t seem that way (example of Joseph being sold into slavery).

I stand for him, because of what he has done for me. Every now and then I remember that the reasonfor me being in France is called “a mission trip”. I guess I had to leave my home to see it clearly though, because for me now this is not just a trip for a few weeks, build something, do a bible lesson, have a good time with my youth group (Not saying that any of that is a bad thing).

This is life.

I think we can forget that we are all on a mission field. That each of us, in Christ, have a mission. That mission is to spread the Good News of who he is and what he has ultimately done for us. When you go to work, to school, pack your kids lunches (or don’t), or do whatever it is you do (like lay in a eno all day). Do not think you are any less important than the person next to you or that they are any less important than you, because I have some Good News for you.

Whether you think so or not, you are a sinner, but the Good News is that there is a way to not be condemned for it. CHRIST IS ALIVE. God has made a way. I advise you take it, cling to it, and in return, Live for it. No, you don’t have to tell every person you meet (because when you don’t speak the same language that makes things a little complicated), but you have your hands, some kind of talent, so SERVE.

God sent me away from my home to realize this.

Enjoy your Easter my family and friends.